Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Chipmunk:
Was so scared that it happens again... but ended up it still happen... sob =( Haiz.. Another wednesday which I think make it 3 wks in a row le... I dunno y it just keep turning out to be like this.. I really dun wan see you sad...
I dunno y you say you dun have confidence in yourself... or issit that you dun have confidence in me? pixie do trust me dont you? Are you really afraid that I will leave you? haiz.. I can understand how you feel.. Maybe I hav not been giving you enough assurance... maybe you think I am not giving you all my attention.. or even maybe wat I say or do sometimes make you feel that I am still not fully devoted to you ba... Haiz.. But I know myself lor... wat I and her have are only past memories.. I really dun have any thoughts of having anything to do with her since I am together with you lor... or shld say she already does not belong in my heart the way it used to be le.. it's really different now as compare to the time we first meet.. last time I will read her blog or check out her facebook, waning to know how she have been doing.. but since being with you, I nv do all this le... I put all my attention to you lor.. blogged everyday, wanted so much to chat with you even though I am not the one who usually chat on phone.. keep wanting to see you and picking you up after work.. msg you everyday wanting to know how you are and wat you are doing.. care and concern abt you... worried abt you esp this few days when you are so tired and moody at work.. and doing my best to cheer you up when I noe you are not feeling happy.. all these nan dao really still make you feel uncertainty? Haiz... If is this case, can tell me wat I can do for ur sake? I really dun wan you feel this way... =(
Since being with you I really only just wan to be with you... That's y I keep telling you alot of my things.. I wan to be clean of everything.. I dun wish we have any doubts in the future... Actually I am quite surprised why I am being so honest with you though I know sometimes shan4 yi4 de huang3 yan1 is better in a relationship... I just dun wan hide anything from you i guess.. but say le it keeps hurting ur feeling really make me hao xin tong.. Sometimes I really dunno wat I shld do or am I doing the correct thing?
Pixie.. I really hope and need you to be sure of me... you wanted me to promise you things and I can.. but it will not be true if you dun trust me lor.. I do treasure this relationship alot... or shld say I really love you alot... I wan you to be happy... and I only wan to be with you...
(ps: pixie is now no longer a loner.. haiz.. dun wan her to say things like want to be alone or used to being alone... now there is chipmunk by her side le.. and chipmunk feels for pixie lor... she cannot be so selfish to leave chipmunk aside... chipmunk want to pei zhe her always and share her thoughts and feelings... promise me you will by telling me personally can? )
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