Thursday, March 18, 2010
Pixie:pixie fill so disappointed n sad..u actually bcuz of her n quarrel wif me=(( jus bcuz of the wanting to b frewn wif her...reali very sad...sobs...y will i jealous n hai pa,tat is bcuz i love u too much..too much till i scared to lose u..if i dun love u tat deep,i will sae alrite,u b frewn wif her,i dun mind.bt wo zuo bu dao u noe?y??bcuz i love u deeply...yes,i noe i shld not hab tink negatively n tink of u as bad..bt i had to sae,ur words make me tink tat way..n u sae u wan me to ti liang u on tis..den hu will ti liang me?me myself?
i sae alr,if u wan to be bak best frewn wif her,cn..i wun stop u cuz i dun hab the rite..if u understand me,u shld noe i dun lyk u to..yes,she still noe u the best...i seriously duno wat to do nw n hw to carry on frm here.i dunwan to stop u frm being frewn wif ur ex..bcuz i noe u long to tok to her n when she online u will tink of her..so hw,i m struggling inside..mayb i shld let go of tat n let u be gud frewn wif her??i duno...i reali duno..cn ani1 tel me??
Chipmunk:
I nv wan to quarrel with you cos of her or even because of any other things else... I dun like to quarrel... cos it always affect me so much... I hate the feeling of it... it always makes me feel so terrible inside... I wan to stop thinking but I cant... Haiz... i dun wish to be back to being so emo again... but y am I feeling that I am? sob...
What I say just make everything worse again... Haha... din expect me to be so stupid!! Ming ming jiu know how you will react yet I still ended up doing all these... And I guess my words are always wrong... cos every time it just make you think so negative of me... haiz
I really have to admit you really dun understand me well when it comes to relationship... I dunno if you can feel how much priority and importance you are to me... and the amount of attention that I have given you all these while... but to think that just cos of my words it will make you hu zi luan xiang... I always tot action speak louder than words yet it turns out that my words to you seem to weigh more than my actions... Haiz.. now den I realise that I am still not giving you enough sense of security to make you think that our relationship will last... you are still afraid of losing me when I have been so close to you... it is not just you love me deeply... i believe my feelings to you is definitely not less than yours...
I guess I have not ti liang you... I know you surely will feel bu hao shou... feel jealous yet I still make you feel this way... Haiz... I thought my intention is gd.. I tot by being honest with you and tell you everything now, all these prob will not be a hinder to our relationship in the future... but I think I am wrong...
I dun wan to think abt it le... just hope we can be all right... haiz..
(ps: no matter wat, I love you dear...)
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