Sunday, July 25, 2010
Pixie:
ya,tmr u are goin for ur reservist...was waiting for u to msg me when i get home.i received none.disappointment...as usual got home i get the usual scolding. n the sarcastic remark...yea,it is a routine. make me even more stress n i tink i am goin to explode! can anione lend me ur shoulder to cry on?? will u be the one to let me cry on. i said i wan to cry jus nw at plaza but u never do aniting. i was sad..cuz at then i alr wanted to cry but i cry bu chu.
i noe u dunwan me to fill sad n unhappy.wan me to happy cuz tis will affect ur mood.i did..i try to find ting to tok..dun understand i ask u u sae den i duno den u bu nai fan de shuo.it make me fill so sad..everytime i nv hear or dun understand u will show me the bu nai fan face.yes, i m stupid cn? i dun understand..but cant u jus explain abit more or sae again. i m utterly disappointed. it break my heart.
today u sae the c everytime so late. it sound like is my fault for being late though i noe u dun mean me. today morning, dad wake me up at 10.15. he bang on the door instead for alot of time. n is those loud bang. i went out n ask y bang my door. he sae slp until so late lata u cuming.den i sae u cuming nvm ma. is my bro tuition not me. den he shouted at me loudly who ask u to sleep so late blah blah. den sae u cuming to tuition so i mus wake up early n blame me for it. tat y it make me so sad tat everyone is blaming me..even u..
yes,everytime is me.. i m at fault..
i m goin to burst soon. i cn reali no longer hold it animore.. i m so stress..
so many project homework n stuff..i wanted to say to sumone abt it but say to u i will cry and u dun like me cuz of all these sad, i duno wat to do. so i kept it inside but it is so terrible to feel..i wonder wat is the feeling of walking under the rain..i jus wan u to sayang me n comfort me when i feel stress n cry..
9:24 PM
